Maybe a funny question, but what is it like to experience feelings on a daily basis?

So I would say I'm pretty emotional, sometimes I hate it, and sometimes i think it's a great thing. Or sometimes I ignore my feelings. But I am a very sympathetic, and empathetic person. So I get a clear vibe of how people feel. Some people that are like that would use their knowledge to manipulate people, I used to. But I see so much pain in the world that I just want to help the person out. So on a daily basis I'm usually contradictive, I'm pessimistic but can be optimistic with helping people. It's weird, I often feel unloved and rejected but that's fine. When I see birds flying I feel so free flowing and fresh I kinda like that feeling. Kids hugging a person I think so loving and the innocence of a child is so pure and I love that. And yes sometimes I get a huge tug on my chest, actually it feels more like my heart tensing up, when certain emotions of mine are so intense I feel that tug. Like sometimes when I feel disgusted or extemely happy I get that tug. But yeah, long answer. I kinda have akward emotions sometimes.